To Mandy

Sent this E to one of my best friends Mandy a few mins ago and felt the need to share:

All the good men are definitely NOT taken, but it can feel like that a lot of the time. Thank God our feelings are not reality! I TRULY believe that if it's God's will for us to be married, then the PERFECT guys for us are very much still alive and well.

All the faithful things being said my chest physically hurts today - I think it's a mixture of the pain of hope deferred probably and residual heartbreak pangs. I'm also desperately missing the red soil of Africa - it's warmth and groundedness (sure it's not a word). Yes, it is strange for me to miss Africa. It's probably a missing childhood/security thing more than anything - but who knows? I wonder if this is the new me?

Sorry about your foot. Hope it feels better soon! I can always relate to being all over the place. Leaving work in a few mins to volunteer. Will have my cell with me. Call me or text me about tonight.

Definitely want to hear about your interaction with your ex last night. RJV didn't show up at Moody/Kudzai's b-day dinner as RSVPd, much to my relief. I'm eagerly awaiting the newness of 2009.

Love you!